Jealousy, self-loathing, and homosexuality in Proust vol 4: Sodom and Gomorrah

Shall we continue w/ the strangeness of In Search of Lost Time? Why not? A huge turning point in this vast novel occurs midway through vol 4, Sodom and Gomorrah, when Marcel's jealousy regarding Albertine ignites - and it's this jealousy and torment that will propel the novel through volumes 5 and 6. The key is that he is not jealous because he suspects Albertine has been w/ other men. Au contraire. His jealousy sparks when the elderly and pedantic Dr. Cottard sees Albertine dancing w/ Andree in one of the seaside pavilions, and Cottard notes, quite absurdly, that their breasts are touching while they dance and he goes on to discuss female arousal. So Marcel creates this vast conspiracy in his mind, constantly obsessed with Albertine's supposed liaisons w/ Andree and perhaps w/ other women. What makes this strange - a mirror within mirrors in the "funhouse" world of Proust's fiction - is that of course Proust himself was gay and the relationship w/ Albertine that he created in his fiction was actually based on a relationship w/ another young man - so in some weird way he cannot write about his own homosexuality but rather he transposes that Albertine's supposed lesbianism (Sodom into Gomorrah) and he rails against that as a perversion and disgrace. It's as if he suffers from guilt and self-loathing and the only way he can extirpate these feelings, through art, is through transposition. So the gay author creates a straight relationship between M and A that M destroys because of his (false) belief that A is in love with or at least cheating on him with another woman. This complex structure - projection of self-loathing onto another - also plays out regarding Judaism in Search for Lost Time, a topic for another post.